Not Sure

hmmm

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 00:21:09 -0400

Worked at the Orange Box for a while worked with some pretty cool people, customers though hated them fuckers! some were ok but most sucked.

Things are somewhat looking up well I should be happy but I always feel like something bad is going...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 00:19:25 -0400

Things are somewhat looking up well I should be happy but I always feel like something bad is going to happen, I know this is not healthy thinking but due to my shitty life I can’t help but feel sometimes that I am not meant to be happy. I mean shitty dumb mom was with a piece of shit who beat us and always made excuses for him; as for the rest of my life well my lack of education resulted in some poor choices. I eventually started learning on my own life lessons, other people, school, and just always wanting to know about the world and universe. I know now that I have the power to change my life and I have in so many ways I am educating my kids and letting them think for themselves; doing good so far they are doing great in school but I feel for me personally I am tired I have accepted my choices and current situation and mental being. Oh yeah I am no longer religious but surprisingly I feel at peace with that, I knew I always hated church but I was always told I had to love GOD! I have never been more at peace now that I do not belong to any religious organization. :0

It's been

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 18:58:00 -0500

Have not been on here in a minute, the boy’s are living with their grandma and she still tries to make him sound like a good person….. No I know him better than you after all I am the one he strangled yeah even told me to look him in the eye. I still can’t watch a scene of someone being strangled without feeling how I did when he was doing it helpless, terrified, and defenseless. Fuck him talking about we can work; no we can’t I will never respect you I see you for what you really are. You have not changed and you never will oh and BTW I am know you are on the DL. Telling your mom you couldn’t be in the Military and be a true Christian SMH and she bought it; you can’t be because all you do is lie, no one but me and V know the shit you put me through. It’s ok though because I found someone who I actually trust and believe me I thought that would be impossible after you, even if things don’t work at least for a while I was happy and still am, I wont ever regret him like I regret you. And now you hold those dearest to my heart over my head because it’s all you got. You are like the fucking plague and when they are older they will see it. This is how I remember most of my time with you

Reblog If : Interracial couples make you smile <3.

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 18:29:10 -0500

love-sees-no-color:

Lunch

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 17:58:36 -0500

Had lunch with my BF mom yesterday at Applebee’s…. It went really well maybe we can live in peace lol. Oh and I start work tomorrow.

Chill

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 22:24:51 -0500

Weekend was pretty good went shooting with the BF and neighbor, decided to remove the negative post I started out with, I don’t want to look back at this a few months from now and be reminded of the negativity during that time. Listening to Marvin’s Room. It’s Valentines Day today, but feels more like any other day but it’s cool this year lol. Was talking to my best friend I love her been feeling guilty about doing things since I don’t have the boy’s but I will be going back to VV this summer and will be with them. I have learned not to be so judgmental it’s doesn’t feel good when people judge me. I have learned so much these past two years, I guess it’s true that people never stop learning well some of us.

Nice

Sun, 12 Feb 2012 00:36:39 -0500

Had a pretty good day went shooting with my BF and a neighbor couldn’t ask for a better weekend.

Relieved

Thu, 09 Feb 2012 21:42:24 -0500

Excited about finally getting a job, not the most glamorous but in this economy I will take it! lol

Lighter Side

Thu, 09 Feb 2012 21:22:37 -0500

Love Drake but this is just some funny ish lol

Person behind the camera is amazing, loved that time with him.

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 00:21:00 -0500

Person behind the camera is amazing, loved that time with him.

First Time

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 00:01:59 -0500

So I am blogging I guess, I am treating this as a journal. I can’t stand most of my boyfriends family!!!! God that felt good. Interesting time for me I have found that lately many of the things I believed in have been tested, some of these things I was clinging on to for dear life like religion and politics. This is a trying time in my life but I know it will pass and I will finally be comfortable with who I am.

ROBOTS OR DINOSAURS?

Tue, 07 Feb 2012 23:33:31 -0500

Robots, Dinosaurs are scary lol

Ocean Shores

Tue, 07 Feb 2012 23:22:00 -0500

Ocean Shores